Tuesday, July 8, 2008

TRUE BLUE


I am getting good at goodbyes. Feels like every time I turn around I am saying farewell to a friend. 

I had to say a forever goodbye to True Blue, my suitcase today. 

True Blue has stuck with me over the past 4 years living through consistent travel including but not limited to. Texas, Indiana, Virginia, Tennessee , Taiwan, Cambodia, California, Washington, Nevada, Georgia, Hawaii and all over Portland when I was “homeless”. 

When I arrived in Cambodia true blue was not there. I was 10 hours up what looked like a river bed in a jungle village, sure I would not see that suitcase again. Yet, 5 days after I arrived along came a beat up pick up truck carrying my dear True Blue covered in red dirt, smashed, tattered but holding its own. I had never been more excited to see True Blue...the local clothing was a bit short for me....

True Blue stuck with me through the thousands of “how long ya staying” jokes, the “my gosh what is in this thing?” remarks. Watched with me as the the many people who picked us up from the airports eyes got big as they thought about just how true blue was going to fit in the car. There where some tight fits but we always made it. Somehow. 

Today I tried to pack true blue again, but he could not do it. He is just too old, too may miles, too may airports and trunks, too may smashing, to many times of me sitting--or jumping to get that thing ziped. 

See ya good buddy, thanks for (mostly) showing up on the converter belt, thanks for keeping my shoes so nice. Thanks for rolling behind me though many cities and countries. 

I will miss you. 

ps
if you ever packed True Blue in your trunk, car or lifted it into something, carried it, rolled it or otherwise True Blue and I say thanks very much. It was fun. 



Wednesday, July 2, 2008

sacramento Day One

I am in CA doing a COMMIT (a girls conference I work for) Its going really well.

Here are a few shots I grabbed today. 



small groups time in the sunshine...



games, a hello and a bit of unsure...
The thankful wall, the girls thank Jesus for the little, undeserved gifts he has given us. some of my favorites, Ice cream, hot water, my brother, my bed, chap-stick, hair. 
yep!  -je

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

thoughts of cambodia


My latest project has been going though my Cambodia images. Not a small task. Because I went almost directly to the street project I did not share many....



This is one of the pastors of Cambodia and his home he shares with his wife and many children...I never could tell the ones that were his, he took in so many orphans! A dear man whom loves Jesus and serves Him faithfully, caring for the forgotten. 


Monday, June 23, 2008

ok ok I realize I have been a serious blog loser. 

back into full blogging swing. 

stay tuned! 




This shot is from my cambodia trip, a school they turned into a prison camp and killed thousands. 

Sunday, May 18, 2008

this i have found



anyplace is wonderful--if i am with Jesus.



Friday, April 18, 2008


It's been a long, cold, heart breaking 6 weeks.

It feels like a life time. 

This year has been full of pain. If I look over my journal I see tear stained, tattered, questioning pages.

It kills me to talk to the 11 year old who is a meth addict--his father showed him how. Why God?

I can still see the sweet baby girl I held in the streets of Cambodia--I feel the effects of my crushed heart as I realized she would most likely not make it to her 5th birthday. Its not Fair Lord! 

I have experienced more hear break then I care to.  

I have seen to the evils of the sinful man in explicit, ugly ways. 

And I have fallen in love with Jesus more then ever before. I love how He loves. I love His soft heart. I love his justice.  

I love how my heat can be shattered all over the streets of Portland and he gently picks up the pieces and makes them whole again. 

I love that when my world hangs by a thread I can look up and see Him not moving. My Rock. I love that though there is pain and great suffering He is there. 

What did I see on the streets of Portland? I found this: Jesus is the only thing worth putting your trust in.

He will not fail. He does not fail and He is always worth it. 

-jocelyn.elise

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

i want to be a rock star!

I walk down the streets of Portland. I hear my name yelled. I see a friend who I meet on the streets come running up to me. We sit and talk about her day, about mine. 

After a few moments she gets us to walk to dinner. I give her a hug. "love you Jocelyn, thanks for listening."

She leaves me standing there wondering, has it really has been this simple my whole life and I just missed it. 


YES.                         It  is.                           It was.



I have been asked over and over again what the answer is. What is the problem with these kids? Why are they homeless? Why don't they just get a job? Why don't they just go home? 

I don't know why. The reasons are different as the people. Some reasons valid, some not. 

But this I do know:

No one wants them. Jesus pursuits their heart.

No one seems to notice them. Jesus knows what color their eyes are. 

I have found that the smallest acts are Jesus to these kids. Eye contact and a smile can grant a hopeless heart the courage to go on another day. 

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more portraits to come, thank you for your prayers

gratefulness,
jocelyn.elise